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My name is Elaine and I also write under the pen name of the Undefeated Life. Since I had received the books authored by Mark Hamilton, and some stand out articles from the Neothink® Society library, I have a renewed interest in Life. That is an amazing thing for me to say on many different levels; and I must tell you that I have always been a survivor who is willing to overcome any hardship that presented itself to me in life….until one night.
I was in love….I had met a man that I knew I was destined to spend the rest of my life with. We were together for 10 years in deep commitment and love for each other. Then, on the very day he asked me to marry him I lost him. He had taken me to a special dinner engagement to propose to me. I was on top of the world in love with him and had said yes! After dinner, we sat in a favorite garden to talk and enjoy each other’s company. Then it happened, a crazed man walked up to us and held a rifle up to us which he had concealed at his side. I had not known that this person was stalking me, and was deadly infatuated with me. He stated, “If I can’t have you nobody can” and raised the gun to my finance. I attempted to get between the man and my love but a flash was all I saw and then as if in slow motion my lover lay on the ground with a bullet in his head.
I ran over to him and held him begging him to hold on. Then I heard the rifle cock again and as I looked up I only saw the barrel of the gun. I asked this killer to shoot as he pointed the gun at my head because as I sat holding my love as he slowly bled to death; I did not know how to go on without him. I have been dead ever since. I testified against the man putting him in prison. I cried myself to sleep each night that first year. Following that I contemplated suicide daily because of the pain in my heart and the contributing flashbacks of that awful, raw, event.
That was 30 years ago. Since that time I have graduated college, worked long enough in the education field to retire, re-married and had one son. My son is disabled and my husband left me to raise him on my own. I had always felt these past 19 years that I was living for my son; because without my love – there was, for me, no real reason to live. However, before I received an invitation to the Neothink® Society, I had gotten to the point where I was ready to stop living again – even the zombie like existence I had lived for the previous 30 years.
I still have pain, I still hurt; but I WANT TO LIVE! I believe that LOVE IS THE REASON TO LIVE! Mark Hamilton, the writings I have read as a member of the Neothink® Society, and the nice people I have met, all make me want to develop a renewed purpose for my life once again. I understand how this world can easily embitter a person; but I want to say to you. Is it really worth the time and energy to propel this negativity against a single human being? Did not Jesus say that we should love one another, “Even as I have loved you?” So what if Mark Hamilton wants to make a living selling books, we all have to make a living some how! If it were not for those books, I may not be here today. I have studied many different bibles and religions, have lived with missionaries; researched psychology and social theories of the past and present civilizations; and I must say, “There is a truth and honesty in the literature from Mark Hamilton and the Neothink® Society that speaks to the core of the right to integrity in the human experience and life that, if allowed, will replace the current hatefulness and dishonesties of our time.”
I noticed your complaint was written in 2005. If you would like to let me share more of what I have learned from the Neothink® Society please visit my blogs for them at: http://www.neothinkessence.com/ I write on this blog site as a volunteer in hopes of sharing with others, like you, the idea that Life Can Be Good Again!
That is what I believe – This new belief is because I purchased the books of Mark Hamilton and joined the Neothink® Society.
Regarding the political party movement, and Mark Hamilton’s false attempt to start a political party for change, this link http://www.Neothink Society.ca.gov/elections/ccrov/pdf/2009/september/09148da.pdf, will hopefully help you to see the desire that Mark Hamilton has to better our world is a REAL EVENT in this time. With regard to prosperity….it is true that anyone can attract good things to themselves, including prosperity if they desire to think positively about events and outcomes in their lives. I think that the reason THE SECRET book, (Not authored by Mark Hamilton) has become so popular – a number one best seller. It is because it states you can attract great wealth to your life through positive thought. It has worked for me and many others. I love the fellowship of integrated thoughts and loving relationships which I enjoy as a Neothink® member. Thank you Mr. Hamilton and the Neothink® Society. I am glad that I did not believe these types of negative, disgruntled Internet posts when I looked you up. I am a curious person, and I prefer to make up my own mind. I am glad I did. Elaine in Los Angeles, California (2009)

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